Hey everyone! I've been kind of dead for awhile and I just wanted to apologize for it!
As usual I've been kind of stressed about life stuff lately and I haven't been as active as I always want to be :/ I just can't seem to kick this funk I've been trapped in for a long time and it's been hard completing all these requests.My lack of motivation has been hurting really bad lately because of poor self esteem issues ONCE AGAIN .__.
BUT HAPPY DEVIANTART BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!!I managed to stay on this page for 5 years!
Errr-- anyway... haha
I got a little carried away there XD
It's really sad to me, I suppose, that I feel like I've wasted so much time in the end. Like, I've never really got to focus on the comic I've always wanted to write...
Every day that passes by, it feels like I'm slowly walking away from the thing that really made me happy and excited to remember and growing into this sort of... never-ending nightmare.
I know that's pretty dark and stupid thing to say, but it's just that lately it's been very hard to not feel that way.
Like I'm almost turning into some kind of robot as the rest of my family suffers from. :/Maybe it's because their lack of encouragement?... I don't even know anymore .__.
So I'm like sensitive and such XD long-story-short!I HAVE ISSUES AND I NEED TISSUES LEL--
AND NOW FOR WHAT YOU'RE MOST LIKELY LOOKING FOR~
Your question probably is: "Where da heck is my artz yo?"
My answer: Most of them are pretty close to finishing, I just didn't expect to end up getting so many ;__; I'm actually a little stressed out from that too because I want to impress all of you...
More words that you can skip:
I really hope you guys actually like my art... I'm starting to feel like most of you will leave once you get your chibi...
I don't even know and it's bad to make assumptions, but I really do appreciate you guys. I really do.
Like I said before, I can't shake off the negative feeling I've gotten myself into lately.All I really want to do is write my comic I love so much and finally get it out of my system. I guess the main reason why it's so hard for me to get over this situation is because that I lost my original document that had all of my concept works, story boards, characters, and pretty much EVERYTHING I needed to make it flawless in my own eyes. I even checked it with 3 popular writers and each of them said that it all connects really well and it's well written... I've put literally blood, sweat and tears into that thing for over 800 pages (front and back) of story and concept work... That's 1600 pages worth of content that I was told it was good. That's really it though. I remember a good amount of it, but it's not... right? I feel so useless without it and I've had this thing for YEARS. I don't even know anymore... I want to write it so badly but I feel so lost without my content folders.I guess that's enough of me being sappy sad face anyway
But thank you everyone for staying for so long!!
Like I said before! I really appreciate you guys! I love it when I see my watchers paying attention to my content! Anything as simple as favorites and comments really makes me excited and happy! The more activity I get, the more things I would love to make for all of you!!Stay strong and don't be like me and let everything mess with your head!